DID MY RELATIONSHIP STANDARDS BECAME TOO HIGH BECAUSE OF WATCHING MOVIES? (Where the female lead is given a princess/ queen treatment)
Hm, nah.
I mean, I have a mother that is essentially sort of a martyr, and a father that is borderline narcissistic. My traumas and issues set the bar too low I have z-e-r-o expectations on men. I knew early on I cannot depend on anybody for my survival. I only have myself, and I have to learn a lot of survival skills early in my childhood. Also being given a huge responsibility on my siblings when I was still, essentially a child myself, made me averse to taking care of other people when I stepped into adulthood.
I have avoided relationships, platonic and romantic, because I do not want commitment. Most of my time is spent on books; fairy tales, and love stories with happy endings, even if I do not believe in happy endings, it simply does not exist. It is not real life.
AND I love it, because it’s not real. Ironically, the traits of these male leads in my books set the standard of how I wanted to be treated, and I am 60% sure will commit to these kind of men, if ever they exist in real life, and only if they are willing to give 100% of their commitment to me. See, impossible, right?
Before I even commit to a serious relationship with my ex (now my husband), I have a shelf-full of book boyfriends, that are way older than me, written by women in their 40’s-30’s, set at some point in history where women’s rights are non-existent, and mysterious, moody and brooding males are hot commodity. Bonus if they are bloody rich, because who wants a broke ass potential love match.
Only the aspect of them being rich is what appeals to me, and that they are basic heroes who at the minimum, does not lift their hands on their woman. And I’m set for life. I can live my days doing what I want, being provided for, siring a babe or two, that thing. What, a coupe of children vs a lifetime of non survival, yessir, count me in.
Gahd, there is no bar to be seen there either.
This is a random post, get what you are able to and dispose of the rest.